for two days, i have been depressed.
the reasons?
im not really sure too.
for one thing i know, yesterday was HORRIBLE.
maybe no THAT,
but still.
im trying really hard to hide my damn depression today.
i really am.
probably it doesn't work.
but too bad if you are affected
or
infected by my depression.
i don't know and i don't
want to know.
i think i was depressed yesterday is
because...
i didn't bring my pencil case.
i know you think that's no good reason
but... i don't know.
and after school, i went to the amphi to get the
hollaback crew tickets.
cause scgs got into the finals. (band seniors. cool.)
i don't know why too.
but it stank.
group of people with smelly perspiration
towering over me
like over-sized skunks.
michelle got bitten. (i didn't know skunks bite)
oh well.
i was happy for awhile. then
i thought. why do i wanna go? WHY?
could not think of an answer.
then sank into depression quickly again.
i went home, head down.
tried to smile.
but could not. why? i don't know.
when i went home
the computer was gone
not thw whole thing.
only the screen.
but the screen is essential.
so when my jie came home she 'sacrificed' hers.
wadever.
then she knew that i have hollaback crew tickets.
then she said all sec1s are posers.
including ME.
i got totally
PISSED OFF.
stupid- (sorry, i can't help it)
today, i got troubled
over the tickets again. i decided
it was not worth my time and effort gettting there.
though i wanted to support our school. badly.
besides,
michelle gave hers to alyssa.
what else do i have to hold onto?
nothing.
nothing.
michelle was evidently sad
that alyssa got money from sale of HER ticket
and not giving her a share
or something.
then she kept saying its illegal.
chi bu dao de pu tao shi suan de mah.
by the way, my chinese
sucks.
horribly.
now, im still depressed.
i hope i will turn happy as
soon as possible.
but
i know-
impossible.
